Mixed Emotions

In a winding down mode, not sure how to feel.  I'm a mixture of tired, melancholy, relieved, peaceful, and nervous all at the same time.  I'm encouraged and enthusiastic about my new life; yet at same time, I wonder to what extent we can in fact create our own destiny.  What things do I just let happen; and what things do I actively pursue to reach goals? This life balance may apply to career as well as personal life.  I'm only a few days old to my new digs, haven't even gotten a good night's sleep yet, and the brain is already churning about such things.  Calm thyself.  Off to an afternoon nap, while I still have free time the next few weeks. Soon, my life will change as my career jump starts again.