25 Things That Are Depressing Me

Let me count all the ways of why I'm in a shitty mood and feeling depressed lately. 1) side effects from antibiotic; 2) tired of going into the doctor every morning to have wound dressing changed; 3) feeling like I'm not being productive at work and summer is going too fast; 4) scared that I am somehow caught in my own insecurities about whether I'm getting to set in my ways and structured to be spontaneous, be content, and meet somebody new; 5) lonely; 6) not sure if I could be happier, but not sure if I'm necessarily unhappy; 7) sad about having distant relationship with a brother and not feeling inspired to do anything to change this; 8) feeling constrained for time in that I will not be able to take all the vacations in the fall that I would like 9) not taking my dog on enough walks; 10) pain in the ass weight watchers is taking too long to lose my last 10 pounds; 11) tired of not exercising; getting extremely edgy but worried about the wound on my back getting infected; 12) unfinished projects making me edgy; 13) edgy in general; a feeling of restlessness; 14) feeling like I want to plan fun things to get out of a funk, but get restless, tired, depressed even trying to plan those fun things, which makes me just want to sit on my ass; 15) feeling completely hopeless about finding a relationship 16) feeling scared and stupid that I have an addiction to CL, and that it is a sign that I'm lonely; 17) wonders why I feel lonely when in another way I am extremely content with my life; 18) how can these two exist together? 19) feeling like being 'gay' is a condition.... which comes with a shit load of baggage; 20) annoyed at the hot guys on match.com who don't even write back; 21) depressed that fantasies are never realities; 22) annoyed that when I'm tired, I can't complete my to-do list; 23) annoyed that I can't just let go and rest, and not worry about things so much; 24) wondering if it's better to be on citalopram to prevent this worrying; 25) thinking that integrated regular exercise into my life again soon will be a good thing.